I've been extremely anxious lately due to all my school work and college application essays and such. I can hardly wait for this semester to be over. Yesterday I went out with my mom and her friend to the movies. We watched My Old Lady, and I absolutely loved it. Its cynical humor just speaks to me on a personal level. So talking about friendship and cynicism, I wanted to ask you guys if you ever wonder why we have friends? I mean, I do believe that some people you just genuinely enjoy being with, but I also believe this is rare. There are only two people in my life I actually feel like I enjoy and feel completely comfortable being with, and one of them is my boyfriend and the other one doesn't even live in my country. Sometimes I feel like most friendships are based on something you need or want from that other person, you know? Sometimes, when I'm feeling specially cynical, I start thinking friendship is something Hollywood made up tbh. However, this school year, for some unknown reason, I've developed friendships with people I've gone to school with for the last thirteen years and barely even spoke to until now. I'm just confused. Sometimes I feel grateful because I actually have people I can talk to, but sometimes I can't help asking myself: what do they want from me? No, I'm not paranoiac but I just sometimes think people are deliberately plotting things against me, idk. Like, I'm the same person I've always been and you're clearly not romantically interested on me, soooo why do you want to hang out with me now? I believe it's not socially acceptable to ask that question to people so I'll just keep wondering and maybe even tell you guys if I find out. Anyway, comfortable outfits are the best way to deal with anxiety. Like, I don't know about you but I would rather be anxious when wearing a nice flowy skirt than when wearing extremely uncomfortable skinny jeans. I'm not even kidding though! I wore this outfit yesterday and I just love it because dark blue is my favorite color and because it's super comfortable and doesn't make me feel like I'm suffocating. I would love to continue writing but I have to study for a calculus exam! Wish me luck!
Shirt form Brandy Melville
Skirt from i don't really know...
Bag from Kate Spade
Shoes from Urban Outfitters
Thanks for reading!